01/20/88 - 05/24/09

Sergio passed away this morning. I'm still in shock. I was in Fresno when I received the call from my mom. The moment I saw her calling, I knew she was calling with bad news. I have so many what-ifs, like what if I had left home since yesterday, I could have still seen him one more time. I really can't believe this is happening. When I finally got here from Fresno, I immediately went to hug his parents. When I went to hug his mom, she started to cry even harder and kept telling me, "Se nos fue tu hermano (your brother left us)." He really was like a second brother to me. We literally grew up together. I can't remember once single day when we didn't play together when we were kids. I was always at his house since all that separated us was a drive way. We'd always have our front doors propped open all the way so that it was easy going in and out of each other's houses. As we got older, we drifted apart, but I still had the comfort of knowing that no matter what, he was still only 20 steps away from my front door. Now that comfort is gone. It's cliche and not very comforting at the moment, but at least he's not suffering anymore. He battled cancer for 2.5 years. He was so so strong. It hurts so much that he's not here anymore, but he was in so much pain the last couple of months of his battle that I'm sure he's in a better place now. There's absolutely no way he will ever be forgotten. There are just too many good memories. Even though we only had him with us for a short 21 years, I'm so glad I was given the chance to know and love someone like him<3


Looking through his pictures on myspace is so incredibly tough because I see someone who was filled with so much love and energy, but towards the end of his fight with cancer, he was so weak and frail. I really wish this was just a horrible nightmare. Last night, he was in my dreams, but never did I think that this morning I'd be given this horrible news. We knew he only had 6 months or less to live. We knew that doctors could do no more, but we still hung on to some hope that a miracle would occur. I think that's what makes this so hard.